Blank Heaven... an escape from the illusion of perfection. My haven. My retreat. A place where I don't have to explain myself to be understood... a place where I can be myself in order to find myself...
"Life is an "immense journey" and each of us has only one lifetime to travel it. We will wind our own way continuously and relentlessly molding, growing, remodifying our undefined course, performing acts we can never redo on a path we can never retrace. Each moment moves us imperceptibly closer to the journey's end, so that when finally reached, it appears to be simply a vague, cluttered memory in our mind - inexplicable, like an interrupted dream, felt, but half forgotten, and seemingly without purpose. Yet all of us will take our unique journey."
wala sana akong balak magupdate ngayon. but then i don't want to go to sleep just yet. it's still too early.
latest happenings:
~ I'm going to have a new nephew soon. ~ Bought a psp. ~ We have a new Team Leader at work now. ~ Submitted my application in POEA last month. ~ Got enrolled for Q-dap this week. (grabeng kamalasan... at least hindi xa ZT.) ~ Went swimming in Antipolo with the whole team. (don't have the time to post the pictures) ~ Currently trying to learn Japanese.
Blogs – are windows into a person’s psyche. A reflection on what a person perceives to be real. A tool used to be able to somehow comprehend life. * * * * * * * * 6 months working in Teletech. I must say, being with and working with the people I have met in this company was really something. I was able to grow up somehow in that short span of time. I’ve always been so closed off from other people. Detached actually. I’ve even had more than 2 people tell me that I seem so remote and uncaring or rather “walang pakialam sa mundo”. Tsk… tsk.. tsk… I think they just couldn’t read through me. BUT despite it all. There were moments I’ve shared with those people I’ve come to consider as friends which makes me believe that I’m not so weird… and that I don’t have to be so lonely anymore. ^_^ * * * * * * * * * Latest books read: Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas – Bob Ong Consists of anecdotes from the life of the writer. Entertaining to say the least.
I'm scared of the future. scared of the unknown. scared of what's going to happen in the years to come. will my life get any easier or is it going to get much harder?
Shit happens. everyone knows that... There will even be times when you'll even doubt yourself and everything you believe in.
now, I'm not saying all this stuff just to give that all-knowing-and-wise-guru impression. if you knew me or had the slightest hint of what I went through just to be here at this moment... you'd think twice.
I've had my fair share of crap in this life. I remember those days when I would just close my eyes. Take a deep breath and tell myself
Just keep going... Things aren't as bad as it seems.... You'll get through this.... Everything's going to be okay... Don't give in... Right now, it feels as if you're broken inside, but just pick your self up and move on....
And so i did. I had to.
Because in this life - you have to make a choice between just "laying down to die" or living on no matter what happens.
sounds dramatic. but isn't life just one big drama???
so what am I really scared of?
I'm a tough person. I know that... But I'm not sure if I can be tough or brave all the time.
finished watching it yesterday. another romantic comedy tv series. it meets my "the hero/ines should achieve self fulfillment" standard. But the "what-a-big-coincidence" scenario added as a twist to the storyline is so old school. they could've been a little more creative.... like:
~ girl leaves. forgets about her dream of becoming a dolphin trainer and becomes a successful lawyer instead so that she can get their motel back. ~ the whole village files a lawsuit against the company for fraud. they win and they get to keep their land. ~ rescue team saves the life of the president. the president in turn gives back the land of the villagers as a sign of gratitude.
yeah. yeah. I know. my ideas aren't so creative either. but still. give me something I haven't seen before.
visit this site for your tarot reading session... as for my tarot reading session result today:
Knight of Pentacles (Coins)
Focuses on long term situations that change rather suddenly, career or monetary investments, reaching goals, seeking happiness.
(Position 1: This is the background of your reading, tells you what the main focus is, what area is of most concern presently.
Ace of Wands (Staffs)
You are driven by a desire to change your present circumstances. This can indicate burn out or boredom causing one to spring into action to bring about new circumstances in life.
(Position 2: This card tells what your motivations are, why you are compelled to do certain things,etc.. it is your drive.
Tarot Wisdom: Five of Swords
Health flare ups may be indicated here, also feeling burdened by other peoples problems while having little or no support for your own. You are in need of a rest. Broken promises. Major imbalance, fears causing you to act out of character or to justify improper actions for what you want.
(Position 3: This is the card that indicates problems & fears that you need to address and clear away. This can be subconscious blocks to your progress.)
Tarot Wisdom: Eight of Wands (Staffs)
Relax and know that what is needed will be provided to you. Slow down the pace and make careful decisions now. Mistakes can be costly when they are the result of quick responses and not well planned decisions or actions. Reestablish your priorities, and focus only on your most important goals. Narrowing things down will allow you to give your best where it is most important.
Position 4: This card tells you what you need to focus on that you are not aware of or that you are not perceiving fully at this time. It's purpose is to help you gain some perspective and is often a surprise.
Tarot Wisdom: Six of Pentacles (Six of Coins)
Learn to look at the beauty of the present and still your thoughts of past hurts and future worries. When you look at the present moment without those factors you learn to appreciate the whole of your life better. Remember what is now might not be tomorrow so revere and bless the moment and you will live more abundantly.
(Position 5: This card is an action plan that focuses on the best way to proceed from here, how to use the advice given in the previous positions to your benefit.)
I couldn't sleep and at the same time, I was feeling a bit down because of the guy-who-suddenly dropped-off-the-face-of-my-planet.
I wanted to stop thinking about him, so I started scanning through Twisted by Jessica Zafra. (It's not a good idea to read her book when you're trying to put yourself to sleep. But I was bored with my other books - informational and helpful as they are in obtaining self actualization.)
I was about to put down the book and call it boring as well when I came upon one of her Hey Dude articles.
(isn't it annoying how the universe conspires to remind you of the very thing you want to forget? It's as if the gods and goddesses decided to play a sadistic joke on you.)
Anyhow, she quoted:
"it's better to be the dumper than the dumpee - Bridget Fonda, Singles"
Totoo yan!!! my mind screamed.
I started reading through the article... AND
I was able to relate to her whole experience of liking the "Mr. Torpedo, Mr. Oblivious, Lord High banana of the Dense" species to the superlative level that I could imagine myself saying to the Jessica Zafra who wrote those articles in the year 1994:
Hindi ka nag iisa, sis.
^_^ wehehhe
(it's really nice to be able to laugh at some thing when things don't go your way. )
neweiz, reading J.Z.'s Hey Dude compilation reminded me that:
For every guy who acts blind in the face of attraction, there is always an equal or opposite reaction. In most cases it's the I-am-going-to-move-on-and-get-over-you in the part of the other half giving off that magnetic field of attraction. In other cases, the other half acts up the line "I will never give up!"
well... I choose the former.
Marami pa namang fish sa ocean. Di ba? (Problema nga lang - hindi ako magaling mangisda.)
I flooded all of my friends inbox with spam text messages yesterday coz - I was bored.
Boredom. Land of nothingness. The place where you don't mind anything that matters. Of course, nobody knows exactly how to get there, they just find themselves there all of a sudden. You know, like the way adam and eve woke up one day in the garden of eden.
But anyway, in my case, I managed to teleport myself into that place by simply being too preoccupied in certain things - specifically, my celphone.
I stared at it willing it to come to life. But it remained in its lifeless form.
I resisted the urge to reread all the messages in my inbox and sent items for the nth time just to get some kind of clue to his feelings for me.
"why wont he text me? It's been two days since he last texted me..."
my thoughts kept being diverted back to him throughout the whole day. When I had had about enough of my frustration in waiting for his text message, I decided to take matters into my own hands.
I forwarded several spam messages to my group list which included him.
ayan. pag hindi pa nagparamdam yan... ewan ko na lang.
my plan worked of course. my zombie celphone started getting replies from almost everyone in the list except HIM.
aaarrrgghh... kaasar shit. maybe I AM in love... OR... maybe I'm just bored.
~ Keep my room clean. ~ Quit smoking. ~ Get more sleep. ~ Look for a new job. ~ Make more friends. ~ Buy a PSP and a bike. ~ Get a life. ~ Get over him.
Why doesn't he give me an answer? Is it because he thinks I'm shallow or cheap? Or is it because he's already committed to somone else? Is he busy with his life? it that it?
Why do I even bother guessing? It's obvious that he doesn't give a damn and that I don't mean a thing to him.
So much for my anxiety in confessing all those things to him.
I mean, I'm not expecting for a happy ending. But he should at least say "something".
Here I am hanging in suspense. Maybe I should have given him a multiple choice question so that he could just choose from the following: a.) he likes me b.) he likes me not c.) neither a or b... just apathy. d.) he likes someone else which explains letter b and c. e.) he's bi or something... which is a more acceptable reason than.... f.) he has decided to drop off the face of the planet which explains why he doesn't reply to me.
Is it too much to ask for a reply or some kind of acknowledgement?
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People should be innoculated against attraction. That way, they can concentrate on their career or some greater purpose in life.
Just finished watching the movie on youtube. I spent three whole hours watching it after my 12am-7am shift. It's like - The Butterfly Effect. But I think it's way cooler than that movie.
It's about a girl who accidentally gets the power to travel back to the past.
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"That I met you through the vastness of time, is already enough for me..."
we're going to take in calls for 6 hours starting tomorrow. this time I really have to hit my metrics or else.... I really want to prove to myself that I'm not such a ninny head. That I can do things well if I just put my heart into it. But if I fail... then I guess, I'll just have to move on. *shrugs*
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I'm thinking about the things that were said and done last saturday. I just wished... hindi na nila ako dinamay. I can read between the lines naman eh.
It' all a bit hazy now. waaaa... I got drunk......and made a fool of myself.... in Xay's house. huhuhuhu
I'm surprised I was even able to make it home and into bed. x_x
that is N.E.V.E.R. going to happen again. (at least - not in someone else's house)
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woke up with a headache, feeling nauseous. went downstairs to put something edible in my stomach. My cousins gave me some noodles - but I wasn't able to eat it.
Happy trails to you, until we meet again. Some trails are happy ones, Others are blue. It's the way you ride the trail that counts, Here's a happy one for you. ~Dale Evans
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Where is the good in goodbye? ~Meredith Willson, The Music Man (Thanks, Thomas)
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The best things said come last. People will talk for hours saying nothing much and then linger at the door with words that come with a rush from the heart. ~Alan Alda
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If I leave here tomorrow, will you still remember me? ~Allen Collins and Ronnie Van Zant, "Free Bird," One More From the Road, 1973, performed by Lynyrd Skynyrd
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Goodbye, goodbye, I hate the word. Solitude has long since turned brown and withered, sitting bitter in my mouth and heavy in my veins. ~R.M. Grenon
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Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz
Just finished watching Yamato Nadeshiko Shichii Henge a few days ago. Click on this link to read about it.
The character of Sunako is a bit on the extremes. She gets nose bleeds whenever she's near attractive people. She likes macabre and horror movies.... definitely not your girl-next-door type.
what got me watching the series was the sheer freakiness of the story. It's ridiculously funny. Enough to keep you laughing till the last episode.
"It's not about how long the courtship is - or how long you've been together. Relationships will work out if the people involved WANT to work it out."
Just something I learned from a friend during one of our "mabilisang kwentuhan" session. I had this mind set before that I would have to know everything about the guy first before I would get into a relationship with him. Playing safe kum baga. Duwag? Not really. I just find it hard to trust people that easily. Pero - I also realized that the more I try to play it safe, the more prone I am into getting deceived.
Hangover Emergency Cure (patent pending): 1. Take 2 aspirins
2. Take 200mg cysteine (available at specialty food stores)
3. Take 600mg vitamin C
4. Take 1 tablet vitamin B-complex
5. Mix the following ingredients together in a blender: * 1 banana
* 1 small can V-8
* 6 large strawberries
* 2 tablespoons honey
* 1 cup orange juice
* 1-2 cups milk (or soy milk), to desired consistency
* ¼ tsp. salt * dash of nutmeg
6. Drink it all up.
If necessary, follow up with a dose of Maalox, lots of Gatorade, and bouillon soup for dinner. These ingredients will rehydrate your body, replace essential vitamins and minerals, and help rid your body of some of the toxic byproducts of metabolized alcohol. For a headache that drugs don't seem to touch, try an icepack or a bag of frozen peas wrapped in a tea towel, 20 minutes on your head, 10 minutes off. There've been lots of hangover remedies over the centuries, from the Assyrian crushed swallows' beaks with myrrh to Rabbit Dropping Tea (though we think that it tastes a little raisin-y). Friends of ours have suggested everything from club soda to the classic Bull's Eye (OJ and a raw egg) to pickle brine straight from the pickle jar. But if you're looking for something substantial that actually prevents vomiting, invest in the necessary pills and keep your blender handy; the Almighty Hangover Emergency Cure, judiciously combined with the wise drinking practices detailed above, is for you.Sponsored LinksHow to Cure Acid Reflux
lets try to make some sense out of the past two weeks of my existence. Passed Product training. Probee now. ACE and Product training was so much better.
I miss the times when... ...overbreaks were okay. (Actually, it was fun COZ we get to see someone butt spell. hehehe) ...there were no metrics. ...there were no irate callers. ...there were no floor walkers flagging you for every 2 mins. aux time. ...there were no TACRIFTs to worry about and we didn't have to please anybody.
I also miss the times where... ...we get to go hang out in mayor's house and I get to take pictures of everyone. ...I still had time to watch a movie after the training. ...I didn't have to worry about going to work early.
But I especially miss... Joyce and Mid... and being around my wave mates. I hardly see them anymore.
But... it can't be helped. We all belong to new teams now with new team mates.
bleh... We were introduced to our new teams two weeks ago BUT I haven't talked to any[one] [of] them since then. So, I've already forgotten their names. Plus, I'm also not used to sitting with them during our shifts. They don't seem to mind though. *shrugs*
“... Just because they’re readers doesn’t mean they’re intellectuals.”
That line really hit the spot. Hehehe ^_^
City of Angels
This movie is so over rated.
Fallen
Hated it. It’s so unoriginal. The whole heaven and fallen angels stuff is so old school. There’s nothing about the characters or the story that would make me want to watch the next season of this series.
Saw 1, 2, 3 and 4
It’s not as scary as I thought it would be HOWEVER there were scenes that REALLY made me squirm.
The movie is about testing people’s survival instincts.
I was wondering how I come across to other people the other day and it was answered during our “back stabbing” activity last Friday. Most of my wave mates wrote “Nice” and “Sweet” and “Shy” on my paper. I guess, people really ONLY see what you allow them to see about you. ^_^ Hmmm… Sometimes, I’m worried people see only the good things about me.
Niceness. It’s a disease. Especially among girls. We learn early in life that if we remain all nice and sweet then people will like us. And if we remain meek and docile then people will love us for it. It’s actually something that is expected of us.
If I weren’t all nice and sweet… ... you wouldn't like me if you met me.
We finished our Accent and Conversational English (ACE) Training last week.
It was really fun. Everyone got worked up trying to get a passing score in the CBT’s and the Call Sims.
On the fourth day of training, we had to give a presentation about some of the US Holidays. It was quite hard coz we had to come up with a unique concept for our presentations.
One group copied the GKNB game show. Everyone was laughing coz the whole thing was scripted. Nobody gave a wrong answer and they already knew who the winner would be.
Another group had a Talk show concept. The members had to pretend they were the masters on the topic of Christmas, New Year and Easter Sunday. They came up with the titles “Master of Christmatology” and “Master Egg Hunter”. The “Master Egg Hunter” supposedly also wrote a book titled “Who grabbed my Eggs?” Hehehehe
Another group gave a version of Pinoy Henyo. While the first group that presented had a News Coverage concept.
Our group decided to give a role playing presentation about Valentine’s day and Halloween. ^_^ I think everyone enjoyed watching the freaky love story of Cupid and Death.
Anyway, we’re now in our first week of Product Training…
Same old feelings. Meeting people for the first time sets me on edge. I have to make an effort to make a good first impression.
People rely on appearances a lot. It’s something called the Halo effect. People relate to us depending on how they perceive us to be the first time they see us.
And although a lot of people like to think they don’t make judgments about other people the first time they see them, the truth is – they do… all the time.
And as far as I know – People rarely make an effort to get to know other people better… which is why first impressions and impressions per se are important.
I just attended an orientation in another BPO company. Same as usual.
They tell you how great their company is and how you can have a promising career as well as all those talk about salary or company benefits.
But of course, if you don’t make it past the training room and into the productions floor then you can forget about everything you heard during the orientation.
After what happened in Stellar, I feel so jaded when it comes to BPO companies.
(This is a continuation from my earlier post – To Tell a Few Lies)
I want to think that I’m making a wise decision by turning down the offer of the agency as well as the three other agencies that I went to. I want to think that I’m on the right path and that I’m doing the right thing.
But after rereading my post, I can’t help but wonder:
Am I just being idealistic? Am I just being a hypocrite? Am I just being stupid?
My life is far from ideal and far from being rosy. And like most people, I want a better quality of life. And although HAPPINESS is not tangible, MONEY is! AND – I need MONEY too. I need it now and not several months or years from now.
And like I said before, If I stay here in the Philippines, I don’t know WHEN or WHERE I’ll be able to find a hospital that will employ me. It would really be so much easier if I just take up the offer of the agency. I mean, it’s not like I would be the first person to falsify an employment certificate to go abroad. And it’s not something that is entirely unheard of among registered or licensed professionals seeking a job abroad.
*sigh*
I guess when people do or plan on doing something that is obviously wrong, they rationalize about it. As if giving enough reasons to commit a wrong will somehow make it right. We twist things around so that “The end justifies the means.”
I wish I was like those other people who could just jump in blindly - not thinking about possible consequences - that way I wouldn’t be bothered by the possibility of jeopardizing my career.
But who knows, maybe it’s only a matter of time before I change my mind [and] the possibility of jeopardizing my career wont be so scary any more.
It’s a nice change from the other TV series I’ve watched. It was dubbed in English so, I didn’t have to read any subtitles.
The story is like some thing out of a role playing game. (uh... I just googled about Avatar and it IS a role playing game)
Anyway, It’s about a young boy, named Aang, who has the fate of the world in his hands. He has to save the world from the evil Fire lord and the Fire Nation. To do that, he has to master the other three elements water, earth and fire. So, he sets off with his friends Appa, Momu, Katara and Sokka to find the people who can teach him how.
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However, I don’t know whether I should classify it as a cartoon or an anime.
Come to think of it, what makes an anime an anime and a cartoon a cartoon?
I was asked this question during my Berlitz exam. (You know... the tell-me-something-about-yourself-part) I told the interviewer that I was into anime and that my favorite anime series was Naruto.
After giving her a sketchy information on Naruto. she asked me what the difference was between anime and cartoons.
I told her that cartoons are usually caricature of animals e.g. Tom and Jerry, Bugs Bunny and the Looney Tunes gang, Nemo, etc.
(I simply didn't mention cartoons like Batman, Superman, The Justice League... coz I was trying to make an easy comparison on the subject)
BACK TO THE TOPIC... I also told her that the target audience of cartoons are usually those aged 10 and below while Anime, on the other hand, is open to all ages.
AND THEN...
With Anime the characters are usually people. (forget about Doraemon, Dragon Ball Z which has weird looking characters and Mojacko. eheheheh)
I also told her that Animes have a wide variety of themes (I should have said genre) like school life, romance, adventure, comedy, slice of life, fantasy, suspense etc unlike cartoons.
(I was trying to tell to her that the themes in Cartoons are more confining than Animes)
And that was it. That was my take on the difference between anime and cartoons. Oh and one more thing, I’ve always thought that cartoons were those series I watched when I was still a kid and Animes are those which I watched when I was already in high school. ^_^
Anyway, I decided to google about the difference between animes and cartoons and here's what I found.
I like to buy bargain books. So whenever I see the SALE sign over a book stand, I would be drawn towards it (specially when I have time to burn) and go over the title of the books one by one.
you never really know what you'll find. Usually, I pick books with attention grabbing titles.
Like last time, I picked up the book The Friendship Factor (How to get closer to the people you care for) by Allan Loy McGinnis. I immediately checked the price tag and it was only worth P60. A quick scan of the pages got me more interested. So I decided to buy it.
Today, when I went to the bookstore, I saw the same book again. Only this time, it had a more colorful cover and it was being sold for P130! Xempre natuwa naman ako coz I was able to buy the same book for half the price it had now. ^^
Neweiz, while I was scanning though the other books I also saw this one.
It was glossy and colorful so I decided to scan through it as well.
I opened the page which was discussing something about giving compliments.
Instead of saying - "Nice dress!"
Try saying: "I like your choice of vintage dress." The point is - don't just give off-hand compliments.
Say it in a way that will make the receiver remember your compliment every time he/she picks up the thing you complimented.
the other topics in the book are also interesting like:
what you should do on a date and what you shouldn't do.
Ex. when you (the girl) go out on a date, try giving your date a kiss on the cheek when you meet. It' s better than waiting for the parting/goodnight kiss. (something like that)
and one thing you shouldn't do:
Is to pour out your sob story on your first date! ( a big no-no)
coz you don't really want the guy to feel sorry for you but to enjoy your company. right?
Anyway, I liked the book. However, when I checked the price ... woah... P750!
okay. I think I'll just put it on my wish list for the mean time.
The other book which caught my attention was -
Living Artfully by Sandra Magsamen.
I liked the cover coz it's really colorful and the pages too! BUT the price is also way over my purse strings so...
Just finished watching the series today. I was surprised the story was good. My cousin brought the DVD a few years ago but I didn't pay any attention to it coz the title sounded... boring. But after watching it,
It's far from boring. Actually, I was hoping it would be longer.
The theme of the story is acceptance. It's hard to find people who would take you in as you are, see and accept the good/bad sides of your personality as well as affirm your existence - making you feel less lonely/alone.
Click on this link to read the summary of the story.
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All in all - I would give the series a rate of 5 stars.
Watching it reminded me of the time I was still active in the forums.
Hmmm.... I wonder if those people in the forums I frequented still remember me or if they are even active in the forums until now.
In forums, you get to talk to other people you ordinarily wouldn't have been able to talk to. Anyway, there are various forums you can join depending on your interests.
Some of the forums I've joined are:
Ichigo's - consists mostly of people who are into anime and can play a musical instrument.
Anime-Club - most of the members were also into anime and had a subscription to Questor magazine which was well known to anime fans here in the Philippines.
Tristan Cafe - here, most of the members are interested in online streaming of OPM music.
AllNurses - well the name speaks for itself.
The Scholars - it's a bit of a serious forum. most of the members here are into ROTK. (didn't really participate in the discussions very much)
Today wasn't as successful as I hoped it would be.
I went to POEA today to submit my application for the nursing post in Saudi Arabia. I thought I would finally be able to turn in my application because I had already accomplished most of the requirements EXCEPT for the Passport. (My passport has already expired)
But to make a short story - shorter: My application was not accepted. They said I need to have my passport renewed first... Waaah. Which means, I'll be able to pass my application NEXT WEEK. huhuhuh (it takes exactly 1 week to get the passport renewed.) Hai....
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Anyway, since it was still early, I decided to apply in SITEL.
I passed the Language assessment, the online exam and the phone simulation.
BUT when it came to the Behavioral Interview, I miserably failed again. The reason - a seemingly lack of committment.
Bleh...
This is the 3rd call center I've applied in that I wasn't able to pass just because of my seemingly "lack of commitment."
Everytime the HR finds out that I'm a nurse, everything starts going down hill. They start asking me all these questions about when I plan to work in the hospital and so and so forth.
Finally got an OMA certificate. yey! I'm one step closer to getting that Nursing post in Saudi Arabia.
Latest TV series watched:
My Lucky Star
It's a light romantic comedy about a con artist and the son of a rich jeweler.
In the first episode, the guy is being chased by his dad's body guards ad the girl has just received parole.
They get handcuffed to each other and drag each other around the entire day. They end up helping and getting to know something about each other in the process. Guy decides to follow the girl to the girl's hometown at the end of first episode.
Like I said, the story is a light romantic comedy. It's 20 episodes long. Long enough to make you smile... laugh... paste a sardonic grin on your face... and then smirk.
^_^
Actually, the story and the characters are really shallow. I was hoping the story would acquire a more serious tone to it as it went on BUT it didn't. The sudden twists and turns in the story will only leave you that impression that the writer was playing the "god" part too much.
For example, a new character would pop-up out of nowhere and then exit the story without further ado. Another instance is when one of the main characters suddenly dies in a car accident. *rolls eyes*
Oh well, that's what you get for watching romantic comedies. You'll occasionally stumble upon a series that's so shallow that you start out with the water knee deep and end with the water barely reaching your ankles. hehehhehehe
we had our final assessment. It was done over the phone coz our interviewers were in Canada.
To assess our accent, pronunciation and diction, we were asked to read an essay. And then, we had to take down a dictation for the listening and accuracy rate assessment.
I didn't pass the FA.
And that night, the whole 2 weeks spent on trying to achieve a typing speed of 60 wpm while doing accent training went down the drain. And even though i tried to convince myself that I did my best, it didn't keep me from feeling the sting of failure.
That night was also the last time I got to see everyone in our batch. The others who didn't make it as well, didn't show up the following day, which was also our last day of training.
But anyhow, I'm glad I got to meet someone like Darlene, Guia, Norman, PJ, Jeyline, Mommy Roni, Beth, Zyra, Chix, Charlie, James, JM, Dheng, Joth, katie, Mark and of course Andy.
Failing and saying good bye was never easy. But hey... C'est la vie!
This week...
I applied in 3 call centers. I was asked to get a medical exam for one of the cc I applied in.
Most people think working in a BPO company is cool or something. BUT If only they knew the truth...
1. You have to wear formal clothes and sometimes it’s more like a fashion show. For someone who goes with the regular jeans and t-shirt outfit, you’ll have to buy an entire new wardrobe! 2. the shifting sched. which also means you’ll have to adjust your sleeping patterns every time your sched. changes. 3. Irate callers… hai… dealing with them is like trying to diffuse a bomb. 4. The people you have to work with. It really pays off if you’re a flexible or adaptable person because you’ll have to mingle with a spectrum of varying personalities. I think this would pose as a problem for people like me who find it hard to fit in. 5. Communicating in English. Even though English is our second language, I’ve found that being able to talk in English is different from being able to communicate in English effectively specially with foreigners. Concerns like accent, diction, and pronunciation are some things to be contended with. 6. Critical thinking. Being in constant conversation with clients requires an agent to come up with an appropriate response in a matter of seconds! (something I admit I’m not good at… ^_^… I’ve had a lot of callers turn irate because I couldn’t answer them fast enough).
Of course if there are hassles there are also some perks in working in a call center like:
1. the salary which is slightly higher than what most local jobs offers which allows you to become financially independent. =) 2. Developing some sort of confidence… *shrugs* 3. Meeting and possibly making new friends. 4. learning something new. 5. Being able to compete with others regardless of educational background and etc. 6. Realizing the individuality of other people and yourself. 7. recognizing your own strengths and weaknesses. 8. no manual labor required. 9. Air conditioned work place. =)
I’m sure some people can add more things to the list I’ve just enumerated however, these were the things I had to go through while working as an agent.
Auntie Nenz left for Dubai to work as a structural engineer today. Ate pia and I went to NAIA to see her off. Things are finally looking up for her after all those hardship that she faced with her family.
Cheonnyeoneui sarangeul moeumyeon I mam da daeshinhalgga Dalbichi jamdeun jeo haneul ggeutehn Oneuldo seoseonggeorineh
Cheonnyeoneui geurium moeumyeon I mam da daeshinhalgga Haeoreum bichin jeo deulpan ggeutehn Oneuldo seoseonggeorineh
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okey to give you a few ideas about it.........
The Legend starts out with a tragic love story about an immortal who falls in love with a woman. I say it is tragic because the god-king had to kill the woman he loved.
After she died, the god-king decided to go back to heaven but left a promise that after 2000 years, another "juishin king" would be born who is more worthy and who would be protected by the 4 magical elements namely: the black phoenix, the turtle-snake, the wind dragon(?) and the earth dragon (?).
The god-king also said that a star would be shining brightly on the night the juishin king is born.
And so the story picks up after the 2000 years have passed.
The people eagerly await the "Juishin king" however unknown to them, two women gave birth on the same night the "Juishin" star was shining.
So, conflicts arise when 2 possible "Juishin king" emerge. *************************************************************** The story is about adventure, friendship, loyalty and love.
it's been 3 weeks since i got back from Bicol. I'm still jobless pero nagtry naman akong mag apply sa AAMT. Ewan ko lang kung nakapasa ako. Hindi siguro. Wala pa rin kse akong natatanggap na tawag galing sa kanila. Anyway, eto… wla naman akong ibang ginagawa kundi manood ng mga TV series.
So far, ang mag napanood ko na simula ng nakabalik ako ay:
Devil Beside Me
Coffee Prince
The Legend
Hello, My Lady
mas nagustuhan ko ung Devil Beside Me at The legend. Okey sana ung Coffee Prince kaso ang ang bagal ng development ng kwento. Ung Hello, Princess... boring... Fino forward ko na nga lang ung ibang eksena.
I can still remember my orientation day at CamarinesNorteProvincialHospital a few months ago.
I showed up at the Chief Nurses’ office two hours late for my orientation.
As it turned out, the Asst. chief nurse was the one who was going to give me a tour around the hospital premises and introduce me to the hospital staff (whose names I forgot right after the introduction.)
The hospital was a downscaled version of BicolMedicalCenter which was also a government hospital.
There was the Emergency Room, w/c was a spacious room with three beds and one delivery table.
The Out Patient Department (OPD) for consultations or follow up check-up.
Inside, the Medical Ward was separated into two sections one for Medicare patients and the other for charity patients.
There was also the isolation rooms for highly communicable cases like PTB or meningococcemia.
(I must admit that some parts of the hospital needed repairs. The ceilings were leaky.
There were broken windows and the paint on the walls were already peeling.
But despite the dismal state the hospital was in as well as the lack of hospital supplies and staff (1 Nurse and 1 midwife : 40 patients) most of the beds were occupied especially the charity section.
The Pedia Ward consisted of separate rooms for GI, Respiratory, CNSI and Miscellaneous Cases.
Anyway, next was the Surgical ward which consisted of a rooms for burn, post-op patients, ortho, and vehicular accident patients.
There were also beds in the aisle for misc. cases.
On the second floor was the OB ward which was similar to the Surgical Ward.
Of course the only difference is – all the OB/GYNE patients go there.
Then there was the DR and Labor Room.
The DR had 2 tables. (it was a bit crowded… I think)
The labor room was adjunct to the delivery room.
And last but not the least, the PRIVATE WARDS
A room could cost a minimum of P500 and a max. of P800 per day.
The P800 worth room had air-condition, a TV, a refrigerator and a rest room.
The rooms are ok considering the amount of money you have to pay.
When the tour was over, I was given my first assignment: OB WARD
OB ward, I thought, was going to be the easy.
How hard could it be?
All I had to do was monitor the BP/Vital signs of the post partum patients.
Give some meds.
Make sure that no one had excessive post partum bleeding.
Do some charting, etc. etc.
I thought it was all going to be simple …
Wrong.
Right after I arrived, the staff nurse, asked me to get the fetal heart rate (FHR) of a pre-eclamptic patient.
I told the staff nurse that I didn’t know how (I couldn’t even do Leopold’s maneuver right) but she just laughed and told me to just go ahead and try.
So I went to the patient’s bedside and more like announced to the whole ward that I was going to take the FHR of her baby.
Silently, I was praying I could get the FHR quickly.
5 minutes passed. 10 minutes.
After 15 minutes.
The other patients were already curious.
After 20 minutes.
Even the affiliating students were curious.
After 25 minutes.
The patient was getting nervous.
After 30 minutes.
I was already turning red.
After 35 minutes.
The husband was already asking questions.
After 40 minutes.
I wanted to give up.
After 50 minutes.
I was already hearing something.
In the end, it took me one hour to get the FHR whereas it should have only taken a minute.
Reading how to do something is definitely different from practicing how to do it.
*note: the patient was already having contractions so I wasn’t like auscultating for an FHR the whole hour.
Anyway, the Midwife took the FHR again. Bleh…
If taking the FHR was already a dilemma.
Monitoring the BP of > 3 post-c sec patientsEVERY HOUR was another.
(If the tasks can’t overwhelm you, the sheer number of patients probably will)
After I had monitored the FHR’s and BP, I had barely sat down for 3 minutes at the station when a patients’ relative would inform us that their patients’ IV bottle had to be changed. There were also IV Fluids that weren’t infusing.
(Actually, the Nurses/Midwives should be the one monitoring the level of the IV bottles in hospitals. But in a ward with more than 35 patients… I doubt if you can even manage to get the paper works done on time. Yep… nurses have paper works too. We have to make a note on the patient’s chart regarding their condition during the 8 - hour shift)
As I was saying, after changing the IV bottles and giving an IV PUSH, which I didn’t really know how to do, It was time to take the BP’s and FHR’s again.
When I went back to the station, there were antibiotics that had to be skin tested AND due IV meds to be given.
So off I go.
After 30 minutes, I went back to check the skin tests I made.
Negative which meant I had to start the patients’ antibiotics.
When I went back to the station, the obstetrician was there and was ready to make her rounds for the morning. We had to go with her and assist her as well as inform her about the patients condition as she went on her rounds.
After an hour, the doctor’s round was over.
It was time to carry out whatever the doctor ordered e.g. IE’s, removal of Indwelling catheters and so on and so forth w/c took at least another 30 minutes.
And just when I thought it was finally over, there were patients that had to be discharged.
Then the pediatrician arrived. *_*
Before I knew it, it was almost 2:oo.
I had already missed my lunch break.
The nurse asked me to make the endorsement chart.
BUT I didn’t know how to make one so I went around and asked for the patients’ names.
When I went back to the station – the staff nurse looked at the endorsement chart I made and said that I didn’t list the IV fluids the patients had on.
So, she ended up going around and doing the endorsement chart instead.
When the shift finally ended, I wondered if I was going back.
* * * * *
I came back of course.
And missed a lot of lunch breaks.
It was fun.
It was challenging.
It was nerve racking.
Almost everything had to be done in a fast pace.
I got to perform procedures that I was only allowed to observe when I was still a student.
Every day was a learning experience.
AND
Last Wednesday, I finished my three month contract as a volunteer nurse.
=)
During my volunteer ship I was rotated to OB ward, Surgical, Pedia, Medical, ER, DR/LR, NICU, and Private ward.
BUT
There’s still a million things that I need to learn.
So, I’m going to Manila again for my next training.
yey! just finished my two weeks rotation in the most toxic ward in the hospital - THE MEDICAL WARD.
During the whole two weeks, I did six IV cannulation. I also Encountered some cases, i've only read in books, gave due meds... etc, etc. the bottom line is - it was a good learning experience.
I'm looking forward to my next rotation in the ER next week.
Someone noted that their life and their bank both have something in common - they get out of them about as much as they put in. Which, as far as my bank is concerned, isn't much! But it means I can get a great deal of joy and satisfaction out of life if I am careful about what I put into living.
Gary Player for years was a great competitor in national and international golf tournaments. People constantly said to him, "I'd give anything if I could hit a golf ball like you."
Upon hearing that comment one day, Player responded impatiently: "No, you wouldn't. You'd do anything to hit a golf ball like me, if it were easy! Do your know what you have to do to hit a golf ball like me? You've got to get up at 5:00 every morning, go out to the golf course, and hit a thousand golf balls! Your hands start bleeding, and you walk to the clubhouse and wash the blood off your hands, slap a bandage on it, and go out and hit another thousand golf balls! That is what it takes to hit a golf ball like me!"
His goal was to be at the top of his sport. That lofty dream requires practice, practice and more practice. If your desire, on the other hand, is to excel at living - to give and receive love, to experience joy and to develop fulfilling relationships - then how much of you will you put into your dream? These things, too, are possible with practice.
Do you actually practice love, even when you don't feel like it? Do you practice finding joy even when you're unhappy? Do you work at difficult relationships? It is not always easy, but the payoff is worth it!
Although sometimes... I wonder if effort alone is enough to make all your dreams come true.
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake Can you help me unravel my latest mistake I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season. Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes Like they have any right at all to criticize Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.
Cause you can't jump the track We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table, No one can find the rewind button girl So just cradle your head in your hands. And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year Here in town you can tell he's been down for while But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it
Cause you can't jump the track We're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass glued to the table, No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe
There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out And these mistakes you've made You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2Am and I'm still awake writing this song If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to. And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track We're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass glued to the table, No one can find the rewind button now Sing it if you understand...yeah breath Just breathe, ohho breathe
Itsumo sugoku jiyuu na anata wa ima Kono ame no naka donna yume wo oikaketeiru no Dokoka de kodoku to tatakai nagara Namida mo gaman shiterun darou
Hitori de mo daijoubu to anata mo watashi to onaji Toomawari bakari dakedo naze ka kono michi ga suki de
Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto Kono omoi todokete kureru
Akogare toka suki toka kirai da toka Sou iu kimochi da to wo dokoka chigaun da keredo Anata no sono utsukushii nagare ni Watashi mo nosete hoshii
Aimai na kotoba yori mo kantan na yakusoku yori Hoshii no wa te no nukumori soshite Futari dake no toki
Moshimo anata ga kanashii no nara Ashita ga sukoshi mienai no nara Tayotte hoshii watashi wa kitto Kore kara mo anata mo houmou
Shiawase da toka ureshii toki wa Anata no koto wo omoidasu kara Iro azayaka na kisetsu wa kitto Kono omoi todokete kureru
Translation:
Normally you were so free in spirit – What dream might you be chasing after now in this rain? No matter where you might be battling with loneliness, You were always holding back your tears, right?
You say “I’ll be all right even when alone.” - just like I do Despite detours everywhere, for some reason, we have taken to this path
In times of happiness or joy, I’ll remember of you And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours, Will convey these feelings of mine to you
Longing, liking, or dislike – Though saying my feelings for you are of those seems somewhat wrong, I want to follow your beautiful shadow*
More than vague words or simple promises, What I desire is the warmth of your hand, and A time only for the two of us
If you should feel sad, Or if tomorrow [the future] can’t be clearly seen, I, who wish you would rely on me, Would continue to think of you
In times of happiness or joy, I’ll remember of you And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours, Will convey these feelings of mine to you
Don’t give me a second chance It’ll be the same You will be the consequence And I will have the pain You are something else I have to survive That is why I say With tears in my eyes
[Chorus] I wish I never opened up my heart I didn’t mean to love you baby I wish I never let it get this far I didn’t mean to love you baby If I could have a single wish I’d turn back time I didn’t mean to make you I didn’t mean to make you Mine
Don’t look at me like I’m mad I thought you would know I was getting way too sad It was gonna show There was no way I could hide I could hide the truth So I took the risk And fell for you
[repeat Chorus]
I didn’t mean to make you hold me I didn’t mean to get so lonely I didn’t mean to say all this to you I didn’t mean to make you need me I didn’t mean to love you like I do Look at what we’ve put us through
I love this song. Especially the opening part and the chorus.
* * *
I've been working in the hospital for almost a month now.
Before, the idea of doing volunteer work didn't have any appeal to me.
It was already hard just trying to get by the daily/weekly expenses when I had a job.
(I was already earning around 6k - 7k pesos every 15 days at that time)
So, I couldn't imagine how I would be able to make it without any salary or allowance.
I also didn't want to rely on my parents again.
It was only recently when I had my full exposure to the scope of the duties and responsibilities of a nurse, that I thank God that I was working ONLY as a volunteer at the hospital.
Many people think that being a nurse is an easy job... nothing could be farther from the truth.
Nurses spend more time with the patients more than anyone else in the health care team.
They are left to carry out MOST of the Doctor's treatment plan as well as their own Nursing Care Plans.
As a whole, nursing is a physically, emotionally, intellectually and spiritually demanding job.
And while working as a volunteer nurse, I was able to just concentrate on "performingwhile learning the ropes" - because I knew that someone would be there to save my ass if ever I messed up.
* * *
As for the social aspect of my life... well... * shrugs*
I've stopped communicating with most of my friends.
I was late for work. It wasn't like i could do anything about it. The bus servicing on our area broke down. Had to ride on a trike this morning instead. My shift was at 6. Arrived at 8:30. Chief Nurse didn't allow me to go on duty. oh well.
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3rd week as volunteer. it's frustrating. it's stressful. it demanding. i hate having to wake up at 4:45 in the morning and go home at 3 pm. 6:00 now. curfew time.
strange. even though i'm so busy. feels like my life is so empty.
City life has always appealed to me. The hustle and bustle. The seemingly purposeful activity. The impersonality and detachment. The sense of being isolated but belonging at the same time. The cloak of mystery, complexity and sophistication.
Changes have to be made if growth is to take place. Venture out into the unknown. Go beyond one's comfort zones. nobody's going to hold your hand as you go on your journey... within or without.
Finished the training for BLS-CPR which was given by the Philippine National Red Cross (Rizal Chapter) today. It went pretty well. I'll be getting the certificate after two weeks.
Now i'll be working to get a certificate for Advanced Cardiac Life Support (ACLS).
Music Playing: Heroes Come Back - Home made Kazoku
I think there's no point in asking this question. it's not like I have a bunch of fans waiting out there. in fact, I think the reason people don't like me is because they already know who/what I'm really like. and the truth is... even I don't like me.
Can anyone get more pathetic than that?
hai... my self esteem is chronically sagging. god, how am i possibly going to make it through this life, if i can't even live with myself?
i know that if I think about it hard enough, i know what is making me miserable. it's just that i'm afraid that if I voice it out/even write about it, I would be allowing other people to judge me.
And so, here I am... barely having any confidence in myself. But at the same time, trying to look like I have it all together.
I guess people don't know who I really am after all. If they did, they'd give a damn more about me.
And I think, we'd also care more about other people if we knew who they really were.
5 days after my birth day, we learned that Lolo Quinn was rushed to the hospital with a possible diagnosis of stroke.
Auntie ritz and I left for Bicol immediately. My mom had already went ahead of us. The trip felt like the longest journey we've ever made.
We arrived in Daet, Camarines Norte on the evening of July 27 but found out that Lolo Quinn was transferred to another Hospital in Naga, Cam. Sur.
July 28. We went directly to Mother Seton hospital. Lolo was unconscious. Initial CT scan revealed possible cerebellar infarction. Tests were already made. His blood sugar and triglycerides were high. His V/S had all went up as well.
I was already afraid that we would lose him. seeing him weak and helpless for the first time was too much.
He always seemed to be so strong in mind and in spirit. At the age of 73, he was still an active priest. A Monsignor. He still served 10 barangays in Tabas, Paracale.
And then a Stroke....
On July 31, another CT scan was done. The scan showed cerebellar and occipital infarction. It meant that the oxygen supply to his brain was severely decreasing. Chances of survival was slim.
The ICU was already full. The doctors also said that he would eventually need a ventilator however they did not have that machine available. So, He was transferred to another hospital.
August 3, 2007
while I was talking with my old friends who decided to make a surprise visit. there was a commotion in the ICU. And then a nurse came out running.
I decided to peak through the window. Lolo Quinn had an arrest and they were already doing CPR. I went inside and even managed to put on a gown. I watched for several seconds hoping they could revive him. However, we were already losing him.
I went to the watchers room and announced that Lolo was having an arrest.
At 6:48 pm, Lolo Quinn passed away.
The wake lasted for 5 days.
The funeral was made at 2 pm, today. More than 20 priests came to pay their respects and bid him farewell. The bishop of cam. Norte officiated the mass. Most of our relatives also came.
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Lolo Quinn,
There can never be another you. We have always loved you... and always will. We will keep your memory in our hearts. May you rest in peace. Farewell.
my mp4's busted. it's not being detected by the computer. i can still turn it on and play music but other than that, it's not recognized by the computer anymore. I've already tried different ports but it still won't work.
my dad bought it for me when he went to china. hai...................................................................................... nakakainis talaga. kung bakit naman kse pinagamit ko pa kina hayo. ayan tuloy.
Life has been full of ups and downs... but mostly downs for the last two decades or so. Aside from that... Constant low self esteem and inferiority complex gnaws at my conciousness destroying whatever chance I have at happYness.
I want to be able to wear a smile on my face when i look back at my past.
in just one day I found out that I wont be seeing the two guys that I have a crush on anymore. hmmm... it's gonna be a little boring now that they're gone. I used to look forward going to work because of them. *shrugs* oh well. it was just an infatuation. it'll wear off soon. =P
i've been infatuated a thousand times it seems but I still dont' know what it's like to be in love.
I can handle the tests. I can handle the quizzes but when it's time for me to apply what I've learned, I seriously start messing up.
I've been training for almost 2 weeks now. And I am probably the only trainee who got into trouble in the first 2 weeks of employment.
On the first day of training, I changed my account password and after 4 hours when I had to log in again... I could not for the life of me - remember the exact letters that i typed when I changed my password. So, my trainor had to e-mail the site engineer in California to reset my password. And it took 3 days to get another password!
The PRC has already released the list of the board passers. Some of my friends have already started texting me as early as 5am asking me if I already know the result. *palpitations* And then I get a text from Jhie telling me that 86% of our class passed. That's like 27 out of 33. Meaning six didn't make it.
heck, what am I supposed to think? what if I am one of those 6 people who didn't pass?
(of course, despite everything I said about not expecting to pass because of all those problems we encountered before and during the exam... well... I AM STILL HOPING, y'know!)
anyway, It got me thinking. if 6 didn't pass... there is a possibility that most of my classmates passed because....
well, I kinda said out loud:
"IF 86% PASSED AND 6 FAILED, THEN THERE MUST BE A LEAKAGE OR SOMETHING FOR OUR BATCH TO BE ABLE TO PRODUCE THAT RESULT..."
My tita heard me and she immediately reprimanded me.
Saying "You don't know exactly the capabilities of others or how their brains work. So don't say things like that." yes. what she said is true. I don't know what my classmates are capable of doing. What I have of them are only perceptions or impressions.
And to think that I was just thinking yesterday that we shouldn't judge or draw conclusions about other people because we all have the potential to be good at a lot of things if we just put our mind into it. tsk... tsk... tsk... I'm so ashamed of myself.
So I guess the lesson for today is:
Learn to take your success and failures gracefully. Accept your failures just as you would accept your triumphs. Learn from your defeats, try to do better next time or if not... make up for them. And keep in mind... NEVER GIVE UP! *I'll just post something about the result of the exam later or maybe tomorrow.
This past year is probably the most stress filled year of my entire life- the thesis, the exams, graduation, the completion of the DR cases, the job hunt, the review, the board exam, the calamities and etc.
And as I sit here reminiscing, I suddenly remembered something I read before. The hardest and most struggling times, once we surpass them, are also the best years of our life.
It is during these times that we encounter our selves, our strengths and weaknesses.
Hmmm…..
Well, anyway. As I start a new chapter in my life. I am filled with hope and optimism.
I learned that I don’t have to be afraid of myself anymore. I may have done some stupid things in the past... things that I regret. But I can’t undo any of those things anymore. All I can do now is strive to become a better person.
I thought my heart stopped beating when I saw this...
only to see at the bottom that it was dated last year.
shew. so far, the Professional Regulation Commission (PRC) has not yet posted the results of our board exam last December 2 & 3, 2006.
*gulps*
uh...
I think I screwed up my board exam. -_-
Only, I don't know just how much I screwed up the test.
***
But anyway, this regular absentee blogger is back and I have a hundred things on my mind that I want to blog.
Let's start off with the super typhoon Reming which hit Legaspi just one day before our exam.
12/30/2006
I woke up with with the rain pouring outside. It was cold. I always hated the cold, you know. Well, that morning, none of my room mates were making a move to get out of their beds even though they were already awake. Not even to get a book to start reviewing like we usually do as soon as we woke up. Guess they were also cold. it was around 6 am.
By 7 am. Elvie said something about their final coaching. Elv's was the bravest and got up first to take a shower. Acel and Ate Elaine decided to get up as well and followed after her.
"Mommy" and "Tita" was already preparing our breakfast downstairs.
8:45 Everyone had already showered except for me. hahaha... They were waiting for the SMS from their reviewer about their final coaching.
Meanwhile, the rain was still falling steadily outside. The wind also picked up and was getting stronger and stonger as the minutes passed.
by 2 pm. everything was gray outside. we couldn't see the trees outside our window anymore. aside from that, water was coming in fast from the 3rd and 2nd floor. the door from our terrace flew open with chain and all. We had to put the table behind it just to keep it closed. one window downstair was already broken. A metal bar flew from our front neighbor and smashed into the window. The pressure inside our room was also increasing. We could feel it with our ears. There was also no water & electricity.
by 6 pm. The wind started to subside. The streets were flooded.
We slept early that night.
Little did we know, more than a thousand lives was taken that day.
Macel's boyfriend stayed in our apartment for 3 days. He had just bought a new Celphone which had a camera. So naturally everyone wanted their picture taken. Last night, we spent hours and hours posing for the "right" picture, deleting the ones we thought weren't good shots... and basically got stiff jaws from smiling too much... hahaha.
While we were eating breakfast, I begged Ian (macel's boyfriend) to wait until I got the pictures printed at the mall. (He was supposed to leave early this morning for Nabua)
I also got everyone to choose their pictures they wanted to print and list the #. Of course, everyone was happy to comply. By the time they were finished... they were already late for their review.
At 9:30 Ian and me went to Pacific Mall, however, the mall was still closed so we still had to wait for half an hour.
When we finally got to downloading the pictures. . . . . . . . . . .
Ian started marking the pictures in his cp the ones we were going to print... UNTIL... there was one picture of Jhie which we wanted to delete.
And then of course... you can guess what happened next.
Every single picture we marked was also deleted.
Neither one of us could speak at first... And then I started laughing... I told him he really should be going... hahaha.... 'cause everyone back in the apartment is going to want a piece of him when they find out that the pictures were deleted
shiii~it!!! I'm not yet ready! But ready or not... this is it.
damn... wonder how i can stuff all those Medical-Surgical facts in my head? I also need to study on Obstetrics and Pediatric Nursing.
Btw, Coco's cellphone and Mp4 was stolen in his boarding house yesterday. He just went to the bathroom to take a leak and when he got back, the cp and mp4 was gone. they don't have a suspect... nevertheless, I think... it's an inside job.
.... lots of bad people crawling [around] these days.
A week ago, Acel's cp was also stolen in our apartment. The thief actually went up to the 2nd floor terrace and took the cp from the window sill.
I'm feeling low which is why I'm hanging around online right now.
Music. it's an effective way to drown your thoughts... to forget. and I've been doing just that these past couple of hours. been listening to Marilyn Manson. their music is addicting. calming. never knew alternative rock could be so refreshing.
drama. suspense. and even a few revelations. too bad I don't have enought time to write about it.
It's getting dark. I'll be home alone tonight. all my board mates went home. it's so boring in our boarding house now that our landlord cut off the cable TV. -_-
guess I have no choice but to start reviewing Med-Surg. tonight. gotta run.
I have so much to say with so little time. I'm now here in Legaspi City. I'm staying in a boarding house with my friends. It's so great.
For starters, our room is big. Well it's bigger than the rooms you usually get in other boarding houses. And the thing is, we only pay P650 for our accomodation. Aside from that... we have a Cable TV in the living room. (Yup we have a living room... and 3 bathrooms) Which is why our other batchmates want move in with us... hahahahhahaha)
We also have a fantastic view of Mayon Volcano on our roof top. There's also a balcony on the second floor but we seldom use it. Aside from that, we practically have the whole house to ourselves. The other dormers are always out or rather always stay-in their rooms. What more can we ask?
As for the meals... well... all of them can cook except me. (they even pack my lunch for me sometimes... their so nice. hehehehe) yeah yeah... I'm being a parasite. =P
(i'll ask them to teach me how to cook... next time)
There's six of us all in all. There's Ate Elaine, Genevieve, Maricel, Asteria, Elvie and me. I think i have a picture of them here somewhere... Anyway, they're all nice.
however... er.... the downside of things is - Genevieve has a jealousy streak. Her boyfriend - Hezron - usually comes to our b.house on weekends. I usually chat with him in the living room while watching TV. At first, I thought it was okey if I talked with him or joked with him. But then, recently I've been having this feeling that Bebang is jealous over me. waaaaaaaaaaa...
now i'm wishing I had a boyfriend or something. just so, I could show her that I'm not after hers'!!!
Speaking about jealousy.... well... I have mentioned my bestfriend coco before, right? well, we're reviewing in the same review center - MPGI. He's boarding in the same building of our review center. get it? anyway, sometimes, I eat my unch in his room... duh... it's in the same building of our review center. why the hell not?
anyway... the funny thing is... his room is between these rooms occupied by girls... and yes... the girls have a crush on him. hahahahah... one girl actually knocked on his room just to ask if i was his girlfriend. and when he said, I was just his friend. The girl actually said "YES!!!!" with matching clenched fist in the air. hahahahahhahahaha
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Hmmm... what else? I've been able to do some catching up with my friend wayyyy back in high school - Shid. =)
Aside from that, I've also been able to make new acquaintances.... now... all i need is a boyfriend. hehehehehe
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OMG... I almost forgot! My cousin - ate pia was mugged. she wasn't exactly alone.. pero Grabe!!!! I was shocked when I first read my mom's text. I even reread the text 5x. I tried calling anyone of them in Pasig. But I was only able to contact her when I got home from the review center. Anyway this is what te pia told me...
I was on my way home at 7:30 in the evening on an FX. And just when I was about to doze off... a gun was suddenly being pulled up in front of my face. Then a hold up was announced and that we put our hands on our nape. However, this guy sitting beside the driver, looked like he was pulling something from his pocket... the holdupper thought he was a cop or something... and so the holdupper beside him hit him with a gun...
(there were three of them. one sitting in front, middle and back of the FX. Ate pia was sitting in the middle part beside the other holdupper...) .... they were already stepping out of the FX when one of them fired a bullet on the man's nape sitting beside the driver. the man was so pathetic. they already hit him and all they had to do was go... but they still shot him.
We went to the hospital and then the headquarters. The man died. I got home past midnight.
sh~it. those F*****S didn't even hesitate to kill someone. god. i'm very sorry about the man. no... not only sorry... it's more than that... but still I can't help thinking, what if it was ate pia?
I didn't take the job. Yeah. I feel bad about it. I did sign the contract which is why I got a phone call from Ms. Lyn Nagas (The HR who interviewed me) last Thursday, asking me why I didn't show up for my training on Monday. I hesitated. I mumbled. I stuttered. In the end I told her my mom didn't want me to work in the call center. I also said I was sorry. She said it was okey. Then hung up. At first I was afraid they'd take some legal actions what with the contract and all. But even if they did I would've deserved the punishment. What I did was so unethical... so unprofessional. And aside from that, I'm also ashamed of myself. During my interview with Ms. Lyn, she was so nice... and well... I feel like I let her down.
My mom didn't want me to take the job. But that's just half of it... I want to take the board exam on December. And so, I have to review. I had to choose between taking the job or starting the review. I couldn't have both. So I decided to just start reviewing with my friends in Bicol. Hayy...
but you know what? I think the other reason why I didn't take the job is because... I was scared. During the contract signing I got to meet my soon to be colleagues. They were so... loud. So extroverted. I'm not saying I don't get loud and wacky like them. it's just that I'm only like that when I'm around my friends... or people I'm comfortable with. And what if they didn't like me? what if I don't fit in? I don't know how I would deal with those possibilities and so I guess... I just ran away.
Hay...
I'll be going back to bicol tomorrow. Will be joining my friends in Legaspi. Our review starts on 25. time's up. got to go
I have a job offer from Sykes, Asia. Actually, I've already signed the contract last friday. I'll be starting on August 14.
the search is over... for now. =)
guess this means that I beat the spirit of the paper.
i played this game called spirit of the paper with my friends before I left for Manila. All you have to do is write 3 possible answers separately in a small piece of paper to the question you have in mind. Then you place the small paper in another paper and fold it until it becomes flat and elongated.
then... you ask the spirit of the paper aloud or in your mind 3x. Then when you unfold the papers... the one with the small paper outside of the fold is the answer of the spirit of the paper.
Anyway, I asked if I'd get a job or if i'll pass the board exams. And the answer was both negative.
well... it really freaked me out at first. But I was and still am determined to prove that that's not gonna happen. hah!
I believe that everything you do and did in the past has a direct relationship to what's gonna happen to you in the future... and I'm not about to put my entire future in the hands of a piece of paper or fortune telling for that matter.
neweiz........... I met up with my friend way back in H.s. heheheh... well brian.. if you're reading this... na miss rin po kita.. sobra... =)
weeee... i'm 2o now. ^^ so what's my birthday wish or resolutions?
I dunno... mmm... oh i remember. I want a laptop. I want a digicam. I want a mp3 player. I want a PS2. (I don't care bout x-box) I want my own wheels. I want a new set of wardrobe. and oh... I want a JOB!!!!
I'm so tired. My back's aching and my feet is killing me.
time for some updates about what's happening with my life.
The last time I posted, I was very worried about kuya benny to the point that I even asked for the opinion of some nurses online. Some of their replies were very helpful. Especially the one made by this oncology nurse based in the US. Well anyweiz, I'm very happy to say that kuya benny was discharged last week and he's already recovering.
I'm in Manila right now looking for a job. I went to my first interview yesterday at Robinson Galleria. I can't say I passed but I also can't say that I failed the interview altogether. The HR said they would keep my resume for future reference. Actually my first interviewer told me to wait in the recption area coz she would be asking for a second opinion. The 2nd interviewer told me to wait again coz she would ask for a 3rd opinion. hay... guess i really made them think thrice! hehehhhe
I made new acquaintances yesterday. Jobhen and JaC. They're nice. We'll be going to Makati on Monday. We'll be applying in Eperformax... then Convergys... then Telecare... Then teletech.
But I have to go to ortigas at 2 pm. I'll be submittingi 5 copies of my resume. I passed the phone interview given by CareerQuest... wonder if there'll be more intreviews... hmm..
it's getting late. gotta go.
woooo... almost forgot. This cute guy sat beside me on the bus. And We both got off at the same stop. Maybe he's from around here. Didn't ask for his name and cel no. though.
Another thing... While I was at the mall, I went to this Power Bookstore. I was just going through the book racks randomly... when I saw this book "Love's Answer". The instruction on the back of the cover said... just ask anything related to love and flip the pages and the answer will be written on the page you open. So, I thought I'd give it a try. I asked "will I find the right guy?" And the answer I got was - Don't just sit on the fence.
wahahaha... maybe that means I should get out there and look for Mr. Right rather than just sit around waiting for him to arrive. Well anyway, there was another book quite similar to the first book but with a different cover label. I thought why not give it a try as well. I asked the same question and you won't belive the answer I got... It's so hilarious. at the center of the page, it was written in big letters :
